Friday, September 26, 2008

WHAT DEFINES YOU?..



this is the title of the seminar we conducted in school.. INVEST IN WHAT MATTERS.. sounds superficial and a cliche but if we would ask ourselves.. what are the things that really matter to us?.. as students, we tend to be very grade-conscious at times that is why we deprive ourselves from having fun because we want to use every single second reading in advance or maybe reviewing to the point that we felt quite guilty when we 're not doing anything which is not related to school or when we're not at the state of being too much bothered, that is because we already learned to live with the pressure of doing things at the same time or meeting deadlines that fall on the same day.. but if we would think about it,..the numbers that are presented in our class cards- are those the only things that matter to us?..

we should enjoy our life,.. live for a purpose.. because at the end of the day, we will achieve self-fulfillment, that everybody's longing for, from the things that made us happy,.. and not only from those things that we did because we were obliged to..

let us search ourselves.. WHAT DEFINES YOU?.. is it just your grades?.. is it just your beauty?.. your wealth?..

Thursday, September 25, 2008

MOVE ON


I have been weeping for so long
expecting that one day you will come along
..that you will wipe my falling tears
.. and kiss away my greatest fears
I was staring as you hold her hand
..and murmured, "now I understand"
I was looking as you gaze in her eyes
..how I wish my feelings would be as cold as ice..
In your eyes I can see affection
.. the way you give her your full attention
In your smile I can see true merriment
For you, she might be the reason of your existence
Now I'm completely letting go
Thanks for the distress you've bestowed
Thanks for the restored friendship..
that would be enough to lessen my hardship
It might be uneasy for me to forget
But one day I will look deeply into your eyes and whisper,
"AT LAST! I HAVE MOVED FROM MY PAST.."
i made this last september 2, 2006.. whew!! it has been 2years ago.. haha..
it feels so nice to look back to the stressful things you've been through and realize how grateful you are enjoying your present condition.. hehe.. that is being surrounded with people you love and who cares for you.. now is the day that i can say "AT LAST! I HAVE MOVED FROM MY PAST!!".. i can't tell it while staring deeply into his eyes though because I haven't seen him lately.. haha..

MISERABLE


I was isolated when you redeemed me
I was wet in the midst of the rushing storm
The harsh wind is whipping me inside
And your silence is killing me within


I was deaf when I heard you whisper
And I was blind when I saw you coming
Now that I've realized how I love you so much
The soul that once saved me is killing me now


You locked me up in a very dark dungeon
And your coldness is freezing me now
I'm deeply wounded with your gaze
And your smile is crushing me into pieces


I'm thirsty, give me a drink..
..the blood that is flowing through your veins
I'm tired of playing this game with you
Let me rest in your restricted arms


Your wrath is a striking flame
..growing wilder in every drop of the rain..

WORLDS APART


When I was wounded i looked up to You
You showed me Your nail-pierced hand
Then I know that You've suffered more than I do
This broken life of mine will You please mend?

You have witnessed every tears that I have shed
..every pain that I have felt
You saw me during my emptiness
..You've taken me out of the darkness

I want to start a new life with You
..a life that is holy and acceptable to You
Now that I am back in Your presence
..please let me not depart from You again

Now I am certain..
You live within my heart
You dwell in the deepest depth of my soul
You abide in the highest height of my dreams
It is only You that I need to sustain me

I sinned when I was hurt
I've been cold when I was broken
But by Your LOVE.. what I used to be
and what I would become ..
are now WORLDS APART..

NEGATIVE

I'm dead before it started
I'm doomed for so many years
All the tears were frozen
And my blood is now stagnant
You killed me with your silence
You tortured me with your presence
I was alone and left with nothing
And yet, why do I keep on holding?
Now that I'm back in reality
How I wish to be alive
But is there anyway for me to escape..
From the past that printed my epitaph?
Save me from this grave
I'm afraid in this darkness
The squall is hurting me too much
And the pit is waiting for me to come back
You brought me into your paradise
Full of pretending and lies
Now that I am captivated by you
You'll just turn your back off me and walk away.
this is one of the so many poems i made when i was broken.. this is for the "one" of my fantasy, i know that i can never be with him in reality though.. but everything's alright now.. i'm over it.. c",)